Stroke 20

 Tuesday, October 28, 2025

                    About 6:40 pm

It is one day before the online bate party is to take place. I get to the hotel, unpack my items and spend a few minutes unwinding.  

Although I will be online for most of the morning tomorrow, I decide to see who's online in the video chat room.  

It's pretty active tonight with two hundred people on.

There is a side bar that shows how many people are online.  Next to each username is either an icon shaped like a camera that lets you know that person can be seen live if you so choose to click on it.  Not everybody has a camera icon. Those without, cannot be seen. They are usually just watchers. Tonight the ratio between camming bators and watchers is about half. 

Usually I would search for a few guys on cam that sparks my interest and beat my meat while they put on a show.  Tonight I really want to be seen so I don't open anyone’s window until I turn my camera on and someone opens up mine.

About twenty seconds goes by.  I look at the tally window. There are three people watching. All have no icon near their names.  A few more seconds goes by.  More people pop up. The number tallies between 11 and 14. 

Not all of my watchers have cams. The ones that do, I open their window.

I am pleasantly surprised that at least five guys out of eleven ( up to  fourteen counting the ones coming and leaving) that are both very good looking and are locked into my video chat.

These guys are interested in what I got. I know this because numerous times due to technical difficulties, I had to log off and back on to reset and they quickly re-entered my video chat.

I am usually a lone Bator as I enjoy my own body in my own space, but something about being watched and more than that; being desired in the most sexual way, is in itself arousing.

These guys are beating there meat to me and loving it.

Of course there is no real way of knowing if they are focusing on someone much hotter and sexier unless they of course call you by username in which one Bator does. He's a cute middle aged bottom guy with a hungry appetite to be fucked. He's stroking his dick as he plays with his hole.  He's the most verbal out of all of the guys.  

Everyone else is pretty much silent with the exception of occasional heavy breathing, moaning and animalistic grunts and growls.

I talk a little dirty to him and two others but for the most part I either use private messaging or just watch and stroke my dick like the others.

There's one guy that is built like a small cub.  He's a White guy.  He has an almost smooth torso with the exception of some hair around his tits and a trail from his belly button down to his crotch.  His horseshoe style mustache and a worn down gray ball cap gives him trucker vibes.

There is one other Black guy besides me.  He is showing most of his body with the exception of his face.  He is slender with a very hairy torso and crotch.  This guy has a thick fucking dick. There is no doubt that this guy is all natural. There is no trimming anywhere. Even his taint area has a good amount of hair.  He stokes his dick nice and slow  until I spread my legs in my chair.  I begin to finger my hole.

He picks up the pace. Beating his meat with more vigor.  The Trucker guy follows suit jerking with more enthusiasm.

"Oh Daddy yeah," says the verbal bottom.

I'm loving all the attention but my intention is not to cum.  I'm going to have a long bate session tomorrow so I don't want to be drained before the session.

I decide to log off for the night.  I am actually pretty content taking that it has been so long that I actually spent time in the bate.  I look forward to tomorrow when I can really go deeper.

Stroke 19

 My nipples feel very sensitive.  every time my t shirt touches them I feel arousal.  Normally nipple play does little for me. but somehow I must be extra horny because I feel so many sensations throughout my body.  Every nerve is on edge.

I want to play with myself.

The term "Play with yourself" is often used either as the butt of someone's joke or in some way to shame a person.

I don't care. 

I want to play with myself.

All by myself.

I understand that my what my body craves now and what this distracted mind will allow are two different things.  But for now I am riding the tease even if for a short moment.

Stroke 18

 Sunday Oct. 19, 2025

It's a beautiful Sunday and though I am spending most of my day cleaning and doing chores, I have decided I will be freaky and horny throughout my day.

Stroke #17

 August 27, 2025

6:36am 

I'm a little horny and ready.

6:38am I’m rubbing the bulge in my shorts. I’m not hardcore stroking. Or at least trying not to.  I’m just riding the tease until I had enough. 

Stroke 16

 

Today October 2, 2025

                         5:44am

It's the second day in October.  I recently challenged myself to take at least one good photo a day of myself and post it on one of my five blogs.  

I wake up around 5:00am this morning.  I have a busy morning ahead but Boss is asleep.  This is a perfect time to release my semen.  I'm not majorly horny but horny enough to rub one out.  I am not sure how long it's been since I masturbated.  Lately most of my solo sessions have been quick jerk offs.  But I figure since this month I plan on spending more time making myself sexy for the camera, I might as well take my time and enjoy every inch of myself.

This morning is the first time in a while that I actually take the time to set up even though I'm just throwing some colored light disk near me and using the light from the bathroom.  

Taking the time to set the right angles, poses and lighting brings me back to when I was photographing male nude models back in the day. Only this photo shoot is solely of me.

I get my Bator Balm towel, lube and I stroke my penis enough for it to get semi hard.  I'm not bating yet. I'm just enjoying the tease.  

I am fully aware that this challenge to photograph myself everyday will be somewhat difficult because it is not everyday that I feel sexy.  But fuck it!  I'm in nothing but my wife beater and Bator towel.  I feel sexy this morning and that is all I need to know.

stroke 15

June 13, 2025

           Sunday

It’s about 7 AM in the morning. I’m lying in bed in my blue striped underwear, briefs.  They are very comfortable as the material is a stretchable, flexible material.  It’s called a bamboo fabric.  It’s very breathable, and it moves excellent with the body. 

I wake up with the thought of being horny.  I already have an instant hard on.  Usually when I masturbate, I like to be clean.  Often I would take a shower or at least a quick wash off before I jerk off. 

Since Boss is in rehabilitation due to health issues, I have the place to myself.  I’m not worried about how I smell or anyone else smelling me.  As a matter of fact, I’m lying in bed totally aware of my body odor.   

I raise my arm pits.  My dick is hard as a rock.  I don’t even have to raise my pits because the odor from yesterday’s heat is still on me.  

Like I said before, usually, I would clean up a bit. Today I’m just going to lie in it and enjoy my scent. I grabbed the bulge in my briefs, and I begin to rub. I decide to go inside my briefs to grab my dick and stroke it slowly.  It is not long before the underwear comes off and I’m lying in the bed in my black T-shirt with nothing else on. I raise the underwear to my face and I begin to sniff that musky crotch area. I haven't taken a shower yesterday neither.  This is a two day funk I'm inhaling.  I could feel the tingling sensation at the tip of my penis as I beat off and huff my drawers.  I slow down to a halt.  After a few seconds I start back stroking.

I'm on my back legs wide open, stroking my dick dry.  I desire less friction and an easier stroke so I spit on my hand for lube.  The tingling sensation at the tip warns me of my closeness to eruption.  I take another pause.

This time There is more than cum ready to be expelled.  I feel the urge to piss. I walk into the office and get my iPad out to record my bate and piss session when I get the urge to wank to keep it up.

I bring the ipad into the bathroom next to the tub. I stand over the bath tub and begin to stroke my cock.  As I am stroking, I push out to piss.  My dick is well lubed with piss and precum. I stroke and piss some more until I ooze the cum out of me. I saw the two big drops but that is all I could notice. I do know that I felt it.  Most of it went down the tub drain.  I could possibly go another round as horny as I am. But I'm good for now. 

The time with Boss in rehab sometimes seems more like a curse than a blessing but he's getting his physical strength back and I'm reopening my self pleasure. 

It feels like I have been more busy with him being in the facility than at home, dealing with all the nurses, doctors, the occupational therapist and physical therapist.  But having the place to myself has allowed more "Me" time.  

Instead of getting a hotel room, I can invite whoever over here at the apartment.  But I am not.  

I doubt that I will even hook up with anyone.  There are times when I don't want to think of anyone else's pleasure other than my own.  Masturbation and self pleasure is that outlet and tool to do exactly that and I am tapping into that during this time. 

Stroke 14

March 22, 2025

         Sat  10AM

Boss is still asleep.  It was a long night for him.  I, however, am up.  I'm checking out my new merchandise, ready to put it to good use.

Before I use my towel and balm, I decide to take a shower.  I soap up with my wash cloth.

It is actually more of an exfoliating rag than an actually wash cloth. 

I feel the scraping against my skin as I lather my body. I lather and exfoliate my arms, my arm pits, my chest, my entire torso.  

I wash down below my waist.  I watch as my crotch Is covered with white suds.  I begin to get aroused as take in the contrast of my dark brown skin against the white foaming bubbles.  

Slowly I exfoliate around my penis.  I'm not touching it but getting all the areas around it.  I go around the sides of my shaft.  I get the top and bottom of the shaft without actually getting it directly.  I go down to my balls.  Slowly I exfoliate, going down to my perineal area until I get to my butthole.  I migrate back up to my balls. By now my cock is half way hard. Now is the time I begin to wash my penis, grabbing a hold of it the soapy material.  

I rinse off and watch as the suds race down my body.  My dick gets harder watching the contrast, watching the suds fade away as the black hairs around my cock becomes more visible.

I grab the shower head and change the pulse to jet.

The force is powerful.  I bend forward.  With my left hand I grab my left butt cheek and spread it as far open as possible.  

With my right hand, I move the jet stream up making sure the force hits as much of the inside of my hole as possible.  After a few seconds I do the same thing switching hands and cheeks. I then soap up and wash my buttocks, making sure to get my crack.  After that, I squat down low in the tub and blast my hole with the powerful stream.

I can really feel the force of the jet when I squat.  I push out as much as possible feeling the force hit my walls.  It is not very deep but the sensitive nerves in the tip of my hole sends that feeling that something is entering me even though it is not deep.   Suddenly I have a feeling like I have to pee.  I stay there in the squating position and allow the little stream of piss I have out. It is not much piss.  Most of it is precum from being so horny.

To the right is my black dildo.  I get from squatting to kneeling on my knees.  I wet the suction base of the dick and give it a good slam on the shower wall in front of me.

I change the pulse of the shower from jet to a more gentle setting. It is a wider pulse and it does more tickling.  I set this to place between my legs under my balls, up and down my perineal area and occasionally massaging  my dick with the pulse.

I spit on my middle finger as I move in close to the cock I'm about to swallow.  

I begin to finger myself as I bob forward and backward on my black dildo. 

The feeling is good but I need actual lube for my butthole.  I lube my finger up and go deeper as I gag on the black rubber cock.  By this time I'm in a state of sheer horniness. I drop the shower head and begin to stroke as I continue to suck on the dildo and fuck myself with my middle finger.  Within seconds I blow my load in the bath tub.  I give myself a moment to gather myself before I rinse off and go on about my day.